Getting moving

I am coming out of my little self pity party. It has been a hard few months (I know - for everyone!) but feeling sorry about it and crying "why me?" is sure not getting me anywhere. For the first time in years I know what I want to be doing. Dare I say I even have a passion for what I want to be doing? I think I do. But how do I make it pay? Not get rich, just enough to say I have an income and maybe take a trip once a year. That's not too much to ask is it?

I am going to really try to focus on getting my business up and running and generating income. It has become a very broad business and I will have to reign some of it in I am sure, but I know I am on the right path FOR ME. And I have already had success, just not monetary success. So if I really want to make this a business I better start treating it like a business. Come up with a plan and execute.

Years ago I took a wrong turn and turned into someone that really wasn't me. I don't know what I would do if I could go back knowing what I know now. I have met some dear friends that I will always love and hate the thought of not having them in my life, but this has been a hard road. Of course every thing happens for a reason and I am who I am today because of what has happened in the past. So I wouldn't change, but I would certainly do things differently!

Now it is time to be me and turn this around. I know I can. After all, in the Fourth Grade Mrs. Clute did give me the "I'll Do It Award" ( and yes I still have it!). Boy I do wish she hadn't retired last year, I miss our talks! But she was right then, and I will do it now!

Birthdays

New Years Eve and Birthdays bring the same thing for me. Reflection and hope. What have I been doing? Where am I going? How do I get there? I used to love my birthday. Started celebrating it as soon as it was March. So what happened to me? This year my birthday has been the lamest of all time. All day today I have been thinking - it's my birthday and I will cry if I want too! It's not that I am worried about getting older, hardly. I think it might be that I havent grown up yet.

Time to grow up, take control, and get out of this funk I have spent the last four years in. I am not incompetent. I am not the screw up of all screw ups. I made mistakes but people make mistakes. Maybe, just maybe, its time to forgive myself. Maybe then I wont stand in my own way.

Today I turned 35 and realized I need to grow up.

School Bell Times and POOR communication

Last Thursday it was brought to the attention of our school PTA Board that the Seattle School District is planning on changing the start time of K-8 schools to 8:00am. This decision is apparently a done deal, although they are appeasing people by pretending that the decision is not "made" yet. I have real problems with this decision for many differing reasons. But my biggest problem - they are planning on making this change and have not done any real work at publicly announcing the plans. People are and have been touring and enrolling in schools for next year. They have been making decisions based upon the information that the schools, and PTA's have been giving them. Did any of these parents get the information about the planned schedule change? Our school is one of the schools that will be changed to an 8:00 am start. What about the parents that chose our school specifically because of the later start time for middle school? How about the parents that chose our Kindergarten program, when they could have chosen a different school if they had known about the time? And yes, what about me? I don't want to have to get my kids up and going at 7am. They already go to bed at 8pm and have a hard time waking up at 8am. But I dont get to have the information in time to consider a different school.


And the School District and School Board wonder why parents are so FRUSTRATED with the Seatte School District. Does anyone know how to get into Shoreline?

No more excuses

I keep finding ways to sabotage myself or distract myself or give myself excuses. NO MORE! I have to put myself first, but it sure is hard!

That said - I am going to get back to this. I am going to get my own website up and running. I have spent a lot of time working on other sites (for free) but I have been ignoring my own priorities. Although these other sites have taught me a lot and given me a confidence I have lacked for along time - I have to learn to prioritize!

So time to get going on my own ideas... But in the meantime feel free to see what else I have been up to:
www.apexnwllc.com
www.broadviewthomsonpta.com
www.seniorladiesrock.blogspot.com