Thursday, April 16, 2009
Easier said than done...
A few months ago I was in a real bad way. I ran into someone that I used to work for, trust, and thought of as a friend and mentor. I was wrong and he, along with my other supervisors, sacrificed me (and ran me over several times with the bus) to save themselves. I really have come to grips with what happened, and I am moving past it. But running into him, talking to him and acting like we are still friends was very hard for me. That night I really broke down. What I am doing with my life! How am I going to find happiness and passion for something. I have been running on auto pilot for a long time. I did something that night that I hadn't done since I was a kid. I got down on my knees and asked God for help. I asked Him to please help me find clarity and a direction for myself. A passion for something in MY life, not my kids or husband but something for me to be passionate and enthusiastic about. Help me get my life going so I can be a better wife, mom and friend. I lost my job and I lost myself. There are parts of this change that I am happy about, I am thrilled that I am able to help out at my kids school and be more involved in their lives. But I lost myself along the way, and I need to find me. I did not expect anything more to come from this prayer. Why would God listen to me when I am a part timer only praying when I need or want something. But it made me feel a little better.
The next day my older brother called me and we were talking. He mentioned that he needed to get a website built for his company, but was having trouble doing it. I asked him if he would like me to take a shot at it and he said if I had time that would be great and if there was a way to get website domain emails that would be fantastic. That afternoon I built my first website, it is a really simple website and nothing special. But FINALLY I felt like I had accomplished something. I DID IT! Maybe I am not the total screw up that I was made out to be. Maybe I can do something. So then I started a blog, keeping it to myself because I have been the subject of public discourse before and I am still not interested in getting my self out to far in the public arena. I have built a couple more websites since then, and a blog for someone else. I am excited about doing websites, I have ideas for this and I just need to get busy working on it. Find a way to survive and earn a living. I have PASSION! And I have no doubt at all that this is all a result of my prayer. I can't go so far as to say that God intervened in my life, but I do believe that my prayer gave me the ability to clarify what was missing in my life. And I try to remember to pray every night. Taking the time to tell God what I am thankful for, what I need help with and what I want out of my life. When it comes right down to it, we are all responsible for our own lives. It is about time I realized I am the only person holding me back. I just hope that I can get out of my own way!!!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Getting moving
I am going to really try to focus on getting my business up and running and generating income. It has become a very broad business and I will have to reign some of it in I am sure, but I know I am on the right path FOR ME. And I have already had success, just not monetary success. So if I really want to make this a business I better start treating it like a business. Come up with a plan and execute.
Years ago I took a wrong turn and turned into someone that really wasn't me. I don't know what I would do if I could go back knowing what I know now. I have met some dear friends that I will always love and hate the thought of not having them in my life, but this has been a hard road. Of course every thing happens for a reason and I am who I am today because of what has happened in the past. So I wouldn't change, but I would certainly do things differently!
Now it is time to be me and turn this around. I know I can. After all, in the Fourth Grade Mrs. Clute did give me the "I'll Do It Award" ( and yes I still have it!). Boy I do wish she hadn't retired last year, I miss our talks! But she was right then, and I will do it now!
Friday, March 20, 2009
Birthdays
Time to grow up, take control, and get out of this funk I have spent the last four years in. I am not incompetent. I am not the screw up of all screw ups. I made mistakes but people make mistakes. Maybe, just maybe, its time to forgive myself. Maybe then I wont stand in my own way.
Today I turned 35 and realized I need to grow up.
Monday, March 9, 2009
School Bell Times and POOR communication
And the School District and School Board wonder why parents are so FRUSTRATED with the Seatte School District. Does anyone know how to get into Shoreline?
Saturday, March 7, 2009
No more excuses
That said - I am going to get back to this. I am going to get my own website up and running. I have spent a lot of time working on other sites (for free) but I have been ignoring my own priorities. Although these other sites have taught me a lot and given me a confidence I have lacked for along time - I have to learn to prioritize!
So time to get going on my own ideas... But in the meantime feel free to see what else I have been up to:
www.apexnwllc.com
www.broadviewthomsonpta.com
www.seniorladiesrock.blogspot.com
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Where does the time go?
Friday, February 6, 2009
Where was this McCain last fall?
"I'll tell you how we got here, Mr. President. We got here here by the Speaker of the House saying, "We won, so we wrote the bill." That's not what the years I've been here is called bipartisanship. So without the votes of 11 democrats and without the votes of a single Republican the bill emerged from the other body and came over here... The bill was written with negligible input from this side of the aisle.
So what are we up to now? We are up to approximately one trillion dollars... The Congressional Budget Office yesterday said that this legislation would increase employment by the end of the 4th quarter of 2010 by 1.3 million to 3.9 million jobs... I did the math... A 1.2 trillion dollar bill, 3 million jobs, is $923,997 for each job.
...Maybe we should go back to the beginning here.
They wont go back to the beginning, they will shove this through and we will be in debt for years because of this. All they really need to do is mail each of us a check with a disclaimer that if we cash this check we must spend at least 75% of the money right away in the United States (paying mortgages, buy televisions, cars, something). That would sure help everyone - businesses, homeowners in trouble, and people like me that would like to buy a new car but can't really afford it right now (and I don't really need it - just want it). Although I would most likely head to Disneyland if this happened, helping the airlines, hotels, rental cars, restaurants and entertainment industry. But NOOOO that would not give the government control of the money to dole it out as they see fit.